Alot .Of. Tola

So this past week I will say was a chill week everything went pretty well, I don't think anything overly exciting really happened.  I would say my thanks from this past week, is just being able to have a peaceful and chill week.  I am thankful for being able to see the entire week,  and come around to see the next.  Also thankful for my fireball toddler, we went to a party on Saturday, as wack as the party was she was just having the greatest time. Dancing, running around and just enjoying life. I think seeing life through her eyes keeps me sane, and being able to appreciate the little things in life that 90% of the time miss.

The other day I took a trip to Walmart to get a few things, and like always I ended up sending a few extra minutes honestly browsing the store and picking up ish that were not even on my initial list (funny how that works out huh) Anyway after my "browsing" I was heading out of the store, and this lady stops me to ask if she could have some change. First thought that crossed my mind was, wow this lady doesn't even look like someone that would be asking for change. Next thought was she don't even look like a crackhead either so why is she outside walmart begging though. Granted my initial thoughts were very much just judging a book by it's cover, I didn't know this woman from anywhere and so I sure as heck didn't know her story. So I automatically said "oh I am sorry, I don't have any cash on me" such a bold face lie knowing good and well I did have some change I could spare. As I walked to my car, did it eat away at my heart. I got to my car, and I immediately dug in my purse, pulled out the little bit of change I did have and went back and handed it to this lady. In that moment walking backing to my car, it made me realize giving that lady that money did nothing to harm me. If anything I had a moment of fulfillment. I realized there are so many homeless people I drive by each day, with some type of sign explaining their situation and honestly 8 out of 10 times I read those signs and throw my face the other way because we live in a society where people who resort to begging are thought of as lazy and have brought that upon themselves. But the reality is we don't know the reason why they ended up in that situation, and honestly if my little dollar bill will do something in their life then I have done my little part. And honestly if these people are being dishonest, my thought process is am I the one to judge or try to figure it out. All I can do, is my little.

So I have just accepted that I will be a delay on posting theses weekly thanks lol so please forgive me in advance. Last week was a pretty laid back week, I love the stress free weeks because it means smooth sailing week. Anyway lik usual, I think there are so many things to be thankful for in life but I would say the thing I most thankful from last week is just amazing support system. I had such a wonderful and enlightened conversation with my fiancé (still so crazy to say that), in regard to my future and just how to move forward with life and plans for both of our futures. He had the most supportive and just amazing thing to say "if your heart is not in what you are doing, you will never be happy" I mean clearly this something I already knew, but I think it's especially a blessing knowing the person you will be spending the rest of your life supports your happiness and wants you to not just do something for the money, but for the joy and happiness it will bring out in you. I think at the end of day, the people in your circle will be part of making or breaking you......